I said I was going to be better about writing in my blog and it has been weeks since I last wrote. The day before Thanksgiving I took my final exam for my Master’s Degree. I have been studying and taking care of the kids, which includes special activities at school. It has been hectic!
Thanksgiving was not much fun this year. My sister, who had the double lung transplant, has rejection. The doctors are trying a medicine to stop it. She received the treatment the day before Thanksgiving and the next day she had a fever. She, of course, stayed home, but it was not the same without her. It is always how we feel when one of us is not there. Things are just more fun with both of us.
Sunday was more fun. We took the kids to see Frozen and they loved it! We had a really good time and enjoyed just hanging out. After the movie, we went to Target and the kids used their allowance to buy some toys. After supper, Danny and the kids built a castle out of blocks. It is still up. I told them they could keep it up one more day.
The Christmas decorations went up on Friday. This is our first year with a fake tree. Last year, we found out I am allergic to the mold. We really miss going to the lot and picking one out. Everyone has been great about it and we had lots of fun decorating it. A holiday weekend with its ups and downs.
Recently, I was talking to my sister and my mom and something came up about how much information parents have today. In many ways all the information helps us be good parents and helps us keep our children healthy. On the other hand it can be too much information and just plain overwhelming. I stopped reading nutrition articles because one article says raisins are good for us and another that we should not eat raisins because they are bad for your teeth. Conflicting information all over the place. There are articles about when to do homework, should children get allowance, and on and on. Like I said, too much information. As a parent, I want to do the best that I can for my children, but all the information is overwhelming. This information also adds pressure to be the perfect parent. For example, I feel like a horrible parent when I pack the kids’ lunch. My children are a little picky when it comes to a packed lunch (they will not eat the school lunch). I send in lunchables and I know some parents fell that is awful and neither of my children will eat sandwiches. I send them food I know they will eat and no, it may not be vegetables, protein, dairy and fruit, but they get each of these throughout the week. So, I try to let go of the pressure I feel from the outside world and do what I think is best for my children. I take in the information and make the best decision I can, which is all any of us can do.
The time has come for me to get a job. I have not been in the workforce for seven years, but we have come to the point where we need more income. My husband works two jobs so I can stay home, this was a priority for us. I went back to work part-time when Tyler was 3 months old. My dad helped us for the overlap between my hours and my husband’s but this did not work out. I started an in-home daycare so I could stay home. I did this for four years and along the way I received my BA in history. When I started graduate school the kids I was watching started school and we decided to end the business. It is a tough job and (for me) my house did not feel like my home anymore. So here we are a couple of years later and I am in my final class. I would LOVE to find something where I can work from home! I want to help my family financially, but my heart aches thinking about not being here for my little ones. I love being a stay at home mom and taking care of the kids. I love taking care of our home and I feel that I am good at it. However, the reality is we need more money and it is time for me to go to work. Right now, I am applying to be a substitute teacher to get some income coming in sooner rather than later. Life is always changing and we have to change with it.
It has been over a week since I have written anything! My sister was in the hospital for a coupe of days last week. Her pancreas was acting up to Cystic Fibrosis. We have been so use to everything being about the transplant we forget that Cystic Fibrosis can rear its ugly head still. It is nice that I can go and spend most of the day with her now that both kids are in school all day. I do not have to worry about Danny taking off or getting someone to watch my little ones. On the other hand, nothing gets done around the house. My husband was nice enough to help me Friday morning finish the housework I did not get to during the week. Not only do I not get to my housework but I am exhausted at the end of the day. I find it amazing how tired you get from just sitting in a hospital room. Hopefully, it will be awhile before we are back in hospital. There will be new blogs as we are always growing and changing!
Today, the living room received a thorough cleaning. I moved everything out, vacuumed, steam cleaned and rearranged the furniture. I did not tell the kids just to see their reaction. My two little ones flipped out! Tyler said “What happened here? Did we get a new house!” They ran around, sat on everything laughing. Lilly hugged me and thanked me for the living room. It is so funny how rearranging the living room got them so excited. Then I remembered when I was a little girl and we bought a new house. My parents took us to see it before we moved in and all the empty rooms were so fun. For some reason, we ran around the rooms and declared that the house should stay just like that. I love how little things can excite kids. I was happy with the way the living room turned out and how clean it was, but the kids made me feel even better!
Okay, this semester is over for me! I have a month till my next class starts. So, I plan to get some Autumn cleaning done. I plan on tackling one room a week. Every room needs a deep cleaning including steam cleaning the carpets. My husband is glad he is at work for these projects. It will be interesting to see everyone’s reactions to the house, especially if a room is in complete disarray when they get home. My family does not always enjoy my projects, but now that I have a little time off from school and the the kids are gone all day and I have the time I may as well get to it. This has been a tough transition for me with the kids starting school. I am just not use to having all this time and no one home with me. For the last eight years, I have always had someone with me and the house is pretty quiet. I thought I would enjoy this but it gives me an uneasy feeling. Part of me was looking forward to all I could get done and I find myself missing my little ones. Oh well, the life of a mother!
The last couple of days have been cooler and feeling like Fall. I am not a fan of cold weather and I am not looking forward to the change int he temperature. I like it nice and hot! Tyler is definitely not looking forward to the colder weather. He does not like wearing pants or long sleeves. Now, we are not in need of long sleeves yet, but the mornings are definitely cooler. I informed both Tyler and Lilly that tomorrow they have to wear pants. Lilly is more understanding but Tyler is disappointed. This is always a tough time of year when it comes to clothes. Most of the time I keep only temperature appropriate clothes in their closets and drawers. This way they are free to pick their own clothes without worrying about me saying no. Unfortunately, this time of year the weather fluctuates a bit. Today is going to be 76 degrees and this weekend will be 87 degrees. The over night lows vary as much as the daytime highs. This is also the only time of year I have to deal with arguing over clothes. I am a strict parent when it comes to the clothes my children wear. An example is, I do not allow Lilly to wear dresses in the winter. I feel they are just not warm enough even with stockings. So Fall is coming and this family is sad to see Summer end, we love the hot weather!